Im not sure if this is a post, an essay, a poem or a song.
Im not sure if this will be short or if this will be long
All I know is that it is mine to decide.
Life is Choice.
This thing called life is nothing more than a collection of choices, both conscious and subconscious and their subsequent results.
While in DC I had an awesome talk with a woman named Ann. I pretty woman with brown eyes, short brown hair and an easy smile. Catholic and pro-choice she didnt allow her politics to affect her pleasantries and I respected that. I had never had a conversation about abortion in which I disagreed with the person but respected the discourse. I told her that I, myself dont think I could go through with it. I am a serial nurturer and I get emotional thinking about my future children but that is me. That is my choice. I have a great many thoughts and have learned a great many things but the only thing I know for sure is that I dont know anything. I am not bold enough to tell someone how they should live their life or use their body. I am not bold enough to make that choice for someone else.
When my mother was pregnant with me she was 26 and unwed. Folks gave her money and told her to abort me. She decided not to even before she knew whether or not my father would stick around. He did. And they have been married for 23 years. I told Ann this and she said it was a beautiful story, which it is, and I also told her that I know I am an anomaly especially in the Black community. But I told her that even if my mother had aborted me and my parents stayed together I would still be me. I am more than a meeting of chromosomes. I am experiences, situation, Choices. I am a choice.
Im saying all that to say that yes I have decided to be celibate. No I am not on birth control. No I have never had an abortion. And I have refrained from these things not because of a mandate or a religion but because I chose to. Every day I choose to live my life the way I see fit. And I believe that everyone should have the same choice.